Wednesday, October 19, 2005

5A State Cross Country Meet - October 19th, 2005

Whoohoo, Dead last and proud of it. Today was the state CC meet, and I came in dead last. Nobody behind me, not even a fat kid. Porter came second to last, about 40 seconds ahead of me. All my great plans to run my heart out fell through, and I am not the least bit sad about it.

See, Buddy Sharpe, one of the guys I worked with last summer explained to me that "Americans love situations in sports. Bottom of the 9th, 2 guys on bases. 4th quarter, 32 seconds left, down by 1." I figured that he was probably right. There's nothing that can make people go crazy like 4th down and 15, going for it. Well, here's the situation of the meet today:

Taylorsville has no chance, Clements has a good shot at taking first, but other than that we've got nothing. I'm a sophomore, its the last race of the season, and I'm going to be back here next year. So, bearing that in mind, my plan was to go out there and do my best. Well, today my best happened to score me last place. Hooray for that, I really didn't push myself amazingly hard. I'm kind of proud of my last place to tell you the truth. I'd much rather have last than 3rd to last, at this way I get to have a title.

See, I'm happy with last place. I don't really need phonies to tell me "Hey, at least you finished, good job, you did good." Nah, I know I didn't do good, but that doesn't make me sad, so let me be happy. I absolutely love getting compliments, but when I know that they are forced, it cheapens the whole experience. I really dont think that people ought to give out fake compliments. If the whole market is flooded with compliments, their value goes down. It's like supply and demand. If compliments were only given when they were deserved, they would mean much much more than they do now. I don't mean to say that we shouldnt say nice things about each other, but when I give someone a compliment, I want them to realize that it's for real, not just forced.

so, last blog I said some stuff that I have been criticized harshly for. Allow me to explain all that ugly business.

"On to the bad news: I'm still pretty lame. That is all."

No, I really don't think I'm lame. To tell you the truth, I think I'm pretty cool. I'm one arrogant boy, you don't need to worry about me worrying about myself. The reason I say that is because thats just the way me and kyle talk. Every day Kyle reminds me that he's a "weenie" cause he doesn't talk to a certain girl. And every day I remind him that I'm much more of a weenie, cause thats just how it is. I tell people every day that I smell funny, and really, I find my musk rather pleasant. Why do I do it? It's because that's just something I've picked up, I don't know why. I don't think I'm lame.

About that nobody caring business: Well, that's how I felt. The night before I wanted to rant on and on about stuff, and the only person that would talk to me was Malyssa, and she was twitterpated with some guy named billy or something.

So.... just for the record, to clear everything up: I am not, nor ever have been, nor ever will be "emo". I'm quite a happy individual, with too much self confidence for my own good. I appreciate the concern that was expressed though, you can now stop telling me I'm an idiot.

Hmm, what else what else. I've determined that iceberg isn't all it's cracked up to be. I mean, it's kinda good... but its pretty slow, and not amazing. Thats not to say I won't go there ever again, because of course I will, it's good. Just not amazing, that's all.

I talked to Sharpe a little bit today, and he dropped some hints about maybe working for him again next summer. That'd be pretty cool, I could make some good money again, I like good money. It's a tough job, but I hope that I get it, it'd be good for me. If that falls through I'll just get a job at someplace that will hire 16 year olds, preferably not harmons.

I decided I want to learn C++ again. Yeah, this is like the millionth time I've tried that. Don't you love how lazy I am? I sure do. Snake still isn't done mind you. But does that discourage me? Never. Someday, that will be done, if its the last thing I doooooooooo. This saturday I think I'm going to take a running adventure, and just run as far as I can. I'm going to take it easy, and go exploring, I'm not sure where yet. I'm thinking Jordan river parkway, somewhere fun that I haven't been lately. For some reason I think that'd be great fun. Just to go and spend 3 hours exploring on foot. I think I'm going to do that, it'd be kicks.

So, I'm not even good at cross country, but just think, I can only get better from here. Next year is going to be kicks and giggles, because I'm going to make myself get good. Hooray for goals, I'm going to get crazy good by the time I'm a senior. I'm going to break a 5 minute mile for sure this year in track, and I'd love to break a 4 minute mile as a senior, but I doubt that'll happen. I'll see how it goes, that'd be insanely fun though.

Hmm, you ever feel like I've got ADD? I do.

I want to get together with everybody and watch either Hook or batman begins. Chances are that's not going to happen either. Every single weekend we all say that we're going to hang out, and it never works because we're all too lazy to plan anything. It's a vicious cycle I tell you. How sad that we're all just that lame. Oh well, always another weekend.

So, that's enough random business for a day I suppose. I'm running out of things to make new paragraphs about. How bout that hurricane wilma? Strongest ever recorded. Crazy business this year, crazy business. Kind of makes you glad to be landlocked in good old secure Utah doesn't it? I definitely want to buy an island some day. Just a small one, but I think it'd be fun. And islands are definitely for sale out there. Someday I'll have an empire of energy. Windmills with my name on it, solar fields for miles and miles, and a bunch of cool dams. Then I'll buy an island and do something amazing with it, I just don't know what yet. Well, that's something only the future is going to tell, for now, I've got to worry about what i'm going to do with my UEA weekend, probably go to Logan. I feel so inadequate without ugly facial hair though. Oh well, suck it up princess. Toodles.

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