Monday, October 17, 2005

> mediocre

Welcome back, it's good to be writing again, it's been a while.

So, I've got some ridiculously good news, and then some very lame news. Good news is, I get to run varsity in state. I didn't know my time or place from region for a long time, cause coach just never told me, but it ends up I beat porter and Thaddeus, so I'm gonna run state, and I'm happy about that. My new idea of not sucking has been working out pretty good, I'm enjoying it. I'm so excited to get out there and run my little heart out on wednesday. I know I'm not gonna get a good place, that's asking way too much, but I'm going to give my best. Hooray for state.

The second piece of really cool news is my physics test. I slaughtered it with a fierce passion. I'm starting to really enjoy test days in high school, because tests are just kind of fun. I know I'm a nerd, but I enjoy competition, and I see tests as competition, and as something that I can actually win at. Sure, Jason beats me at Halo, and Robert does something-that-words-can't-describe to me at halo, but can they beat me in physics? No dice.

On to the bad news: I'm still pretty lame. That is all.

So other than that life is going pretty good right now. I'm excited for Cross country to wrap up so I can have a little more free time on my hands, and a little more energy. I'd really love to get a job, but I don't think anyone is going to hire me because I'm 15. I'll have to wait till summer to get a job, but I'm definitely going to do that, because I like income. I think it'd be dreadfully nice to have a car for next year, because transportation opens up alot of oppurtunities for a person. With any luck I'll get myself some sort of vehicle that doesn't have alot of seats, because I don't want to be ferrying my friends around everywhere. But I guess I'm getting ahead of myself, right now I'm pretty much broke, without transportation, without a job, but not without hope.

Ooooh, good news #3: The other day some people from Seminary council cornered me and asked if I could do videos like Andrew. Now.... I definitely can't do videos like andrew, but I can almost do videos like andrew. Im not good or anything, but I can function. Well, they kinda asked me to be their video guy for this year, and I'm pretty excited for that. It's going to be tough, but I really love making videos, and I think this is a pretty cool opportunity to do something amazing. My life is currently lacking great opportunities to be amazing. Sure, I could go feed the homeless or something, but there aren't any amazing projects in school that just let me go wild and have fun and do the very best I can. These videos are going to be something that I can do my best at. I'm excited for them. Chances are I'm going to bomb the first couple of em, don't be too mean when you see them, but with any luck I'll pull some good ones off eventually.

I really want to work on my writing. It would be amazing to be able to just bust out amazing and entertaining essays without trying. I know these blogs aren't dreadfully good, but I'd like them to be. Writing is really cool, because it's the way to get stuff done. It's like putting an amazing argument down on a paper, and holding on to it. It's permanent, but fluid at the same time. A vocal argument comes and goes, and you can't really analyze it, or twist the opponents words with it. With a paper, you can cut that thing to pieces, feel it, quote it, and obliterate it. I definitely want to work on my writing.

bad news #2: Nobody cares. Is there anybody out there that really cares what place I take on wednesday? or anybody who cares what i got on my physics test, or what I'm going to get on my chemistry test tomorrow? Anybody mind when I'm sick? Nah, not really. I guess that's ok, I just wish somebody cared. Nobody wants to listen when I want to break down and just talk about stuff. Nobody really needs to listen, I'm quite fine dealing with things by myself, I just wish there was somebody who cared.

well, with that in the past, on to greener pastures. I'm going to do amazing things. I'm gonna ace my chemistry test tomorrow, and then run my heart out wednesday. After that I'm gonna focus on school until that first video project comes up, and then that's what I'm going to worry about. There's no sense in worrying about other stuff, it doesn't do any good. Why dwell on that which makes us sad? I didn't use to get that. If you ignore stuff, it really does go away. I don't know why it works, and occaisionally it comes back, but if you ignore it, it doesn't bother you. so, I'm going to focus on school and CC and video projects, and then we'll see about frisbee later.

So, All y'alls have a dandy day. This is Christopher Thatcher, off to find something amazing, to make something of his life, to be greater than mediocre. Whoosh~


riss. said...

Ignoring things DEFINITELY does not make them go away.

Anonymous said...

Thatcher!! People do care! I care! Why do I always ask you about your day? Well, just know that I do care what place you get in Cross country, I do care when your sick (even though you don't tell me) and I do care about everything else!! Well, I will see ya later!