Fly

So good.

So, you all know that dream about the future that we all have? You know, when we'll have cars, and go places, and do stuff, and just have fun? Where every joke will be hilarious, where we'll go to carl's junior at 2 in the morning just for kicks, and life is just good?

Even if you don't know the dream, it's there, and I think its probably in most of us. I always dreamed about "High school" in all of its glory. The dream was good, everything was happy. Over the years the dream has changed a bit. Eventually the idea of girls hanging out with the posse hopped in, frisbee made it to the center of my plans, and it natually evolved. But the same main concept was there, never a dull night, random adventures, and lots of fast food.

Well, welcome to high school. Where we're all a bunch of lame sophies without cars or jobs, where girls think we're smelly, and we look forward to region dances more than we look forward to dinner. I'll be the first to raise my hand and admit that I'm one lame duck. I'm not even cool, but I still really enjoy life.

I don't have a car, and I definitely don't have a job. But I've sure got a brother that has friends that have them! Andrew has been down this weekend cause there are a couple of farewells, there was some hot frisbee planned, and just cause he likes coming home. I've got to hang out with him the last two nights, and its just amazing.

Last night (Friday) was gonna be snow frisbee. It was on the calendar, I told all of you how excited I was for it, it was going to be amazing. The weather forecast said wind, but it didn't pull through, it was a clear night, no wind, fine temperature; conditions were perfect.

Me and Andrew were about 40 minutes late, and when we got there there were a whole 4 people there. 2 of them were amazing, and 2 were relative newbies. One of them ended up pretty good, and the other was a funny guy, so its all good. See, instead of thinking about it, and saying "Hey, lets play some 3v3 on a short field." We said "Hey, lets play a 3v3!"

Normally when you have fewer people you shorten the field, and make it a bit easier. Nah, we're way too cool for that. It ended up being a 3v3 huckfest with my new amazing flashflight, and it was actually pretty fun. We were just joking around the whole time, but it was great times. I was throwing trash all night, but it was just fun to laugh. I blocked one of brady's hucks, and that's just not a good idea. See, you always want to get in a guys face, and pretend to want to block him, but deep down in your head you're thinking "If this hits my arm it's gonna break it." So, it glanced my arm then smacked my head, and I got a tiny bruise on my arm. I was gonna take a pic of it cause I was pretty proud of that fact I had got a bruise, but it had faded by this morning.

So, that was kicks and all, but we ended it cause it was getting old. So we're by the cars, and Andrew and Brad hadnt talked in a while so they just hung out and talked. We decided it was too cold, so we got in the car, turned the heat on. So, we warmed up, then got hungry, so we went to carlos pequeno.

This is where it really started to get cool. I mean, the whole night had been fun, we had been joking around, laughing alot, just smiling and all. But then we added some burgers to it, and it just made it official. Scott Davidson, Mcqueen, and some other dude showed up cause they saw brad's car, and we just had a blast just being stupid and being there. It was amazing.

Tonight, the cool attempt to hang out and be cool fell through miserably. Me and Tania had our own little party for a bit, then went to DJ's and played phase 10. W000-friggin-hoo. I commonly say that I'm an old man. I say it because Im one of those kids that is afraid to do anything, ya know? Well, I really felt like an old man, sitting there in the basement, playing phase 10. Whoohooo. Where's my fiber?

So, that was just kinda like "Booooo" So i bailed at 10, and was all lonely and lame for a while. Andrew once again pulled through though, and on his way out he asked if I wanted to go play nightgames at the park. Of course I wanted to, so we rolled out.

It was just fun. I don't know why, they're just a bunch of funny people with cars, and that makes them cool. I love just laughing at anything. There was no shortage of awesome stuff said. There was some hot frisbee in the 20 mph wind, a race with a cop, and some awesome garbage can sliding. It was just fun, I don't really know how to explain the madness.

Well, on monday andrew goes back to school, and I've got to realize that I've got my own friends, but that they're just duds without cars. Nah, they're cool. It was just fun to hang out in another world for a weekend. It's pretty cool that Andrew is up at college though, for some reason he thinks my jokes are funny now.

I don't know, I'm looking forward to the future. I'm going to be huge, because I love fast food way too much. It's not hard for me to say no to a burger when I know its someone else's money, but when it's mine, I'm going to be there twice a day. It'll be 2 oclock, and I'm gonna be hungry, so we're gonna go to taco bell at 2 AM. I don't even care if anyone comes with me, it'll just be fun. I'm going to get a job, and start doing something cool with my life. I want to make fun movies, I want to hang out, I want to play frisbee, I want to play basketball, I want to just go hang out somewhere and laugh at everything. Not worry about stuff, not sit in an office chair, communicate with people without typing, and just have fun.

I know life can't be a dream forever, but for a couple nights I'd like it to be. Someday it will be. I've seen it, I know its there. Now all I need to do is get a car, and suddenly get funny so everybody laughs.

What can I say? I want to be a party animal. Who's with me?

Life is good, it's been fun. Reality sets in next tuesday, and I'm not too excited about it. I've decided that I'm going to bed before 10 oclock every school day next week. I'm gonna see how much of a difference it makes in my life. Right now it's 12:45. I really do need to get more sleep. I'm not sure why, but I just think it'll increase the quality of my life. I figured out that if I went to sleep at 9 every night I'd never ever be sad. Not because crappy stuff wouldnt ever happen, but just because the only times I'm ever sad is late. Funny bit of info eh.

What's new? Not much, but I did pull down my 4.0. I really like my frisbee. Sometimes I feel like frisbee isn't everything though, its a little odd. Maybe reality is trying to set in. Maybe I don't want to let it, or maybe I ought to face it. We'll have to see how it goes.

I love lantus. My bloodsugar has been so amazing lately, its been awesome. I havent been this good ever! Well, not since my pancreas crapped out at least.

Time is marching on. It's been 3 days since I last wrote. Freedom is on the march too. w00tah.

So, who's with me for a brighter future? It's coming. We can't discount the present, but we know that there are great times behind, great times we've had today, and greater times yet to come. It's time to live life. It's been time to live life for the past 15.5 years, but now it's time to put it in writing. I'm ready, lets play halo on monday afternoon, then hang out with everybody that night. Life is gonna be great. Life is great eh? Alrighty, g'night all. I'll see you all soon. Peace out.